1 week!!!!!!

im so glad i started this blog! everytime i start to feel like i just cant take it anymore, i come here and read previous posts and remember how far ive come! Today starts the countdown to baby evelyns birth! Next tuesday is the day!

Right now im just starting to get very nervous about the day in general. My excitement does overshadow these feelings, but they are still there! Even though I wont have to go through labor, I will still be in surgery and that always makes me a bit uneasy to think of. Overall, Im very thankful that after all ive been through and with the way my body feels right now...that im able to just go to sleep and wake up with a baby. Thats the way im choosing to look at it. nice and simple.

Im trying to wrap my head around the whole process of seeing her for the first time. I feel like we have bonded to a very intense degree through this trial of bedrest. There were times when i was in the hospital that i can remember trying to prepare myself for seeing her in an incubator, a tiny 2 pound baby. At our ultrasound last week she weighed 7 pounds! This is all a bit overwhelming to me. So much has changed in the last couple months and my gratitude and love is so huge, i might just explode when i see her. I cry everytime i think about it! i really dont know if ill be able to hold it together :)Im excited to say the least.

Things around the house have been going well. The nursery is done,there are cabinets in the kitchen devoted to bottles,the car seat is installed in car, and the hospital bags are packed. I think we are ready. I guess we better be, huh? Ive always said that i want to be flexible parents. I know there will be things that we have forgotten and things that we will have to learn, but i feel like we will be prepared for being new at all of this. I dont want to get upset about little things, but just learn and grow with the experience. Im sure ill have to call my moms often to ask questions and im sure ill have to send mike out to the store at 2am cuz i need something. Ive had some really great examples of mothers who i admire. Lots of people have advice and they share the ways they think we should do things, but i think every baby and every family is different. Im ready to go with the flow even though im a bit nervous.

Ive been feeling totally miserable which is to be expected i suppose. The high blood pressure wipes me out so im not able to do much. My body is very ready to be done with pregnancy. I think the csection recovery wont seem so bad after all of this. i could be wrong, but i just feel awful. I did end up going back to the hospital and requesting an echo on my heart to be done. i was getting nervous about how my heart was feeling due to the high bp. Good news...nothing has changed! My heart is still in great shape which is a huge comfort to me. I feel so much better about going into the birth and postpartum period knowing this!

Ive been having weekly apointments with my dr. Our ultrasound was awesome. She is sooo big so it was hard to see much, but what we did see was pretty awesome. She has her head burried pretty far into my pelvis and shes been that way since week 28. Its so uncomfortable and she hated the ultrasound, so she was pushing on my cervix like crazy. Guess my cervix is stronger than we thought. We got to see her open her mouth, stick out her tounge and chew on her hand.The tech said she has alot of hair :) ive been picturing her with some dark hair. Ive been stocking up on some little hair accessories. Having a girl is going to be so much fun!

I cant say it enough..but im so thankful for mike! I dont wanna sound too cliche or mushy but he really has been so awesome with this whole process. He has done so much cleaning, laundry and cooking for me. He NEVER complains...i mean NEVER. Ive tried to be really good about not nagging or asking him to do too much. Im just really thankful for him. Even when i go back to work, hes going to be sharing in alot of the parenting and i feel so great knowing that i can fully trust him with all of it! We were at a cute little cupcake shop one day and he was talking about how fun it will be to take little daddy daughter day trips to places like that. Melted my heart. Evie is going to be so spoiled. I couldnt have asked for a better husband and father!

1 week to go before delivery! LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!! :)

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