the good news

good news!!! finally...some good news!!! ultrasound showed my cervix measuring back up at 2 cm today! that is such a HUGE improvement since my cervix was basically nonexistent on monday! There is no bulging bag and her cord is no longer in the way!!!! the meds seem to be working !!

I cant even explain the joy and relief i experienced at that very moment when he told me the measurement. I just kept saying " wait...are you serious? seriously?" over and over....I know there will be so many ups and downs while we are here at the hospital, but i am thriving on the good news for today! I do have a dynamic cervix so it will change from time to time, but if we can get through it week by week this all might work out better than i thought it would on monday. On monday i was looked at as a critical case, a woman who could potentially go into labor at any moment..they even put me in a room right next to the operating room and dr station..so crazy!!!!

ill admit that i was almost at my lowest point this morning. When I woke up and realized that i would be going in for the ultrasound i just couldnt imagine getting more bad news. I felt like i was at a breaking point...my chest hurt, i just wanted to cry.. I felt totally helpless and the thought of coming back to this room with the same feelings terrified me!

This made me realize even more that i have no control! Im just going to continue to take it a day at a time and cling to any good news i get!

Yay baby evelyn....i am trying as hard as i can baby girl....just know that your daddy and i love you soo much already!