its all in the attitude

its really amazing how the attitude of the drs can make things seem so much better or worse! I always wake up at 5:30 am every morning surrounded by 5 drs in my room. They wake me up and say something lame like " are you behaving..?"...or "is that cervix staying put?"( i read about this lovely wake up procedure on a friend's blog and i totally relate now). I just kinda look at them and try to keep my mouth shut, not wanting to gripe them out and tell them to get to the point. I really miss seeing dr s every morning since he really does give off positive and caring vibes. On this unit, they send around all the resident drs on call at that time.

This morning I had a pretty good experience. It wasnt that anyone said anything different really, it was just that their attitudes seemed to be a bit more positive since ive been stable for a couple days. They said they hope and think the meds im taking are working and asked me if i have felt less pressure. I HAVE! When i get up to use the bathroom i do not feel as heavy in my lower half. They said one of my medicines is supposed to lower the level of amniotic fluid to relieve pressure on my cervix. My cervix is not dialted, just very thin. They were anxious to see the results of the ultrasound and said i could possibly move back over to 2 south if everything looks stable. We shall see and i highly doubt it. At this point, all the ups and downs are draining to me...but i will take as much positive feedback as i can get!

Today was a very long day! I tried to go back to sleep after the drs left but that usually doesnt happen. I tried to start a new book but i just cant keep my mind focused. I found a marathon of top chef on bravo and escaped into that for a while. Mikey will be here soon! He only has to work tommorow then he has 2 weeks of vacation! Im pretty excited to have him here with me so much, even though i know it sucks that we cant do anything fun on vacation. He was sweet and asked me if i wanted to have a "date night" on friday night :) It might just be ice cream and a movie in a hospital room, but it will be special anyway. These are moments in our marriage that we will never forget!