ive been in the hospital for 2 weeks! Ive spent 2 freaking weeks in a hospital bed! This just doesnt seem natural!
Yes, i try my hardest to be strong and postive but lets face it, this sucks and i have total moments of weakness on a pretty consistent basis.I also feel like a complete moron and i really should stop talking about it because yes, i know all of the right things to think. Yes, i know that every day im here is safer for her and i want to do everything i possibly can to keep her inside of me. Yes, i also know that this "will all be worth it in the end". But i hate that awful part of me, the hormonal, overly emotional basket case part who wants to scream and cry and sign the a.m.a papers to discharge myself out of here. Thats the part of me that creeps up at random times.

A friend of mine sent me flowers a few days ago. Attached to the vase was a note that said " It takes both rain and sunshine to make a rainbow". Maybe i just need to face it..there will be a few rainy days here and there...heck, there might even be days where i feel like a tornado has torn through my world. Its natural and normal to feel emotions...whether they be good or bad. I am a strong woman and i know there will be sunny days too.....Ill just have to get better about waiting out the rain.